ITATAK MO

There are many days that I'm fully exhausted thinking of many "IF - words" my head somewhat like to burst feeling like a living dead I been in a chaotic family hard to understand coping with my own,I tried to be brave to be bold less complaint as no hint avail sometimes I have no choice but to sulk because my weakness been ignored and the only thing I can do is pouring tears and prayers, sometimes there are small things that almost lead me to a heed all behind that what "if " do I still be alive ,I know not me have this suffering all alone but nightmares come and go like a fast scenes and feel like the dark shadow capturing my past traumatic sweet bitter sour coated candy to death or it wasn't I pray it goes out in my head. In my youth I have many things that I don't feel to be loved all the trauma having a broken family and a bullied kid in a small village in my brain until now has not been erased even with intense prayer or am I lacking in dealing w...

Yesterday It was a great sunny day I been busy Monitoring and Editing my content work then hubby took his chainsaw machine went to his hobby hut then he decided to took out the uneven wood pillar underneath the door but upon starting to on the chainsaw machine he slipped on his knee in a second this small accident can be unpredicted I never thought it happen so we rushed him for emergency before the blood start flowing out on his knee he was so lucky that day that the chainsaw not cutting his bones only the upper layer of the skin but the cut was a little bit deep it needs to have surgical suture this took an hour it was clean and disinfect gladly the hospital in Amstel that hour not much busy we are lucky on time so that was happen. Note: The Danger of not unaware of " using electrical chainsaw is unpredicted you should be Careful." Btw,Before that day, we Visited Muiden ( Muiderslot ) this year of summer 2022 again Less improvement but I lik...