The Effect of Overthinking And the Many IF word ! Family chaos a Cross team Unusual
There are many days that I'm fully exhausted thinking of many "IF - words" my head somewhat like to burst feeling like a living dead I been in a chaotic family hard to understand coping with my own,I tried to be brave to be bold less complaint as no hint avail sometimes I have no choice but to sulk because my weakness been ignored and the only thing I can do is pouring tears and prayers, sometimes there are small things that almost lead me to a heed all behind that what "if " do I still be alive ,I know not me have this suffering all alone but nightmares come and go like a fast scenes and feel like the dark shadow capturing my past traumatic sweet bitter sour coated candy to death or it wasn't I pray it goes out in my head. In my youth I have many things that I don't feel to be loved all the trauma having a broken family and a bullied kid in a small village in my brain until now has not been erased even with intense prayer or am I lacking in dealing w...