ITATAK MO

There are many days that I'm fully exhausted thinking of many "IF - words" my head somewhat like to burst feeling like a living dead I been in a chaotic family hard to understand coping with my own,I tried to be brave to be bold less complaint as no hint avail sometimes I have no choice but to sulk because my weakness been ignored and the only thing I can do is pouring tears and prayers, sometimes there are small things that almost lead me to a heed all behind that what "if " do I still be alive ,I know not me have this suffering all alone but nightmares come and go like a fast scenes and feel like the dark shadow capturing my past traumatic sweet bitter sour coated candy to death or it wasn't I pray it goes out in my head. In my youth I have many things that I don't feel to be loved all the trauma having a broken family and a bullied kid in a small village in my brain until now has not been erased even with intense prayer or am I lacking in dealing w...

Memories are existed in mind when we're healthy we remember people in the past and we laugh we shared stories how those passing moments are shared but there are some circumstances that sometimes we forget to move to another phase of life I believe there is no perfect in friendship and even no Perfect Relationship that last we choose how we compass our life to not to depend on others lives. I remember the sweet days where the smile touches on my cheeks , I remember  some friendship build bridges and I remember a lot of parties being attended and ate food that taste good. In this Occasion I reminisch the fun  children having fun dancing with music and other friends just to jive in for casual chitchat and share fun Ideas. My humor on the top of my lungs laughing as no dim as I wink of my eyes as the party is over on the floor back to reality this is it now is over just  a counting hour why time flies fast ?  my digits get bolder and olde...